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college student. (english literature, dance, education)
quite fond of: friends and family (and where the lines blur) poetry the bay area dance (for life and always) eating constantly party time (excellent!) retail therapy olympic level procrastination wandering in libraries sleeping at odd hours emotional masochism Youtube Last.fm
Poetry Excerpts from "Sound Off" chapbook. Poetry Workshop I, Mills College, August-November 2009. Copyright 2009, all rights reserved. "Progression"
As a
repeated chest pelting
supposition
early onset dementia
bewildered iris
mission statement
as
Horizon line
Testament not old not new
Ampersand
Technology etching That’s enough for today.
"unscheduled" tight
"strangers"
this glass was blown and cut and formed
"Chicken Chow Mein" Nothing is delivered without cost.
[ cohesion and concreteness
Ideals are minimal. Intangible. Disintegrating.
Your fortune: Only you can change your life. No one can do it for you.
It is quite the reasonable goal,
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Friday, July 06, 2007
10 truths about 10 people you know the system1. thank you. for not being one of those bitches, i know conforming is lovely but you didn't do it and i thank you for being my friend through everything, i wish i could see you more cause all our time together is awesome beyond belief, and thank you for laughing at the old woman. ha. 2. i love you, i wish i weren't so hard on yourself, i wish you weren't so judgemental, i wish people didn't hate on your mother, i love you, i'm not used to not talking to you every day while you're on the other side of the world, you always listen to my mix cd's and that's amazing 3. i'm really not upset at you for not dating me. i know i'm kinda weird. but i laugh sometimes when i don't call you back 4. you're a seriously cool kid, please don't let your demons get to you so much, or those bitches who have treated you badly, cause your spirit makes me smile, and you deserve better. stop smoking. it kills your lungs. 5. you're so fun to party with, and talking about howard dean is so ridiculous. hopefully we'll get closer this yera, but i know we already share a lot of secrets. hm. 6. you are my favorite person to be a stupid teenager with, honestly. i defend you when people talk shit behind your back because they don't know how smart and kind you are. they're just jealous cause we're pretty. make sure you don't regret what you're thinking about doing. just make sure you're really sure. 7. god. i don't even know. sometimes i regret everything we had. sometimes i'm really happy about it. you did treat me well, i can't deny that, and i did care about you, even though i do give you some serious shit. but nothing is ever going to be how it was; life's not like that. 8. i'm so sorry i disappointed you so much. i'm trying. i really am. i know you love me. and i never meant to cause you all the emotional hell you went through. it still tears me up inside. but i don't think i'm ever going to be fully honest with you, because i know how you'll react. 9. i'm terrified to go back to that place without you guys cause i wont have anyone to laugh with in the hallways and go give hugs and say crazy things. i'm actually gonna have to get my shit together and make new friends. crap. 10. i could write pages and pages for you, sweetheart. i don't know how to cope with you leaving me, even though you insist that i'll replace you, but how could that work out? you can't replace the everything we shared, the fun and laughter and tears and fighting and frustration and...just everything. i don't know how day to day life is going to be. i don't want to lose you. i can't. but it's life, we have to grow up. and when you really get down to it, we are friends. and we have to really remember that. and by we i mean me. i'm sorry. god, am i sorry for emotionally crossing that line. i'll visit all the time. i'm keeping an eye out for him, because if he ever does anything to hurt you i will track him down and make his pale lanky ass sorry. thank you for being my soulmate. i love you more than i can say. (for the record, in no particular order, names listed below) mom /class of 07/chanel/priya/anna/alison/lynn/amanda/akil/sade |
